Fanfiction: Know You All Over Again; Chapter 19

Summary:
It had been a while since Korn finally moved out of their shared flat. Knock knew that it was the right decision after everything that happened.
And he was fine. Honestly, he was doing good. He didn’t miss the other man at all. Not one tiny bit… Honestly, not at all…

Couple:
Korn/Knock (Bad Romance, Together With Me; Max/Tul)

Word Count:
66103

Language:
English

Status:
Complete

Know You All Over Again: Chapter Nineteen

“You did what?” My voice a mixture of shock and disbelieve.

“I did beat up Mick.” He repeats with an even tinier voice then before.

I look at him confused, but he is not able to meet my eyes. Suddenly a light is switched on in my brain.

Korn honestly believes that I don’t know what he did. I mean, how stupid does he think I am? His shirt is splattered with tiny red dots and he still has some remains of what looks like dried blood on his knuckles. How can he honestly believe I didn’t count two and two together by myself?

“You are aware that your shirt is practically covered in his blood?” I ask him with a hint of sarcasm in my voice.

His head snaps up so quickly I am afraid for his spine. His eyes are like saucers and his mouth hangs open in confusion. I feel a wave of adoration running through my chest.

“I am not angry, Korn. It’s all good. Just tell me what happened.” My voice is gentle and I hope the loving smile on my face is easing his worries.

“But.. I mean, I promised you. And somehow all I do these days is breaking promises. I can’t seem to think about anything else then fucking you and now I beat this asshole up even though you asked me not to. I…”

“You are thinking about fucking me..?” I ask him in a low voice and my smile is turning into a seductive smirk.

I know, right now is not the right moment for any of this, but I just can’t help it. I need him. I really, really need him. Now more then ever before.

I need him to erase these memories of someone else on top of me. Of hearing someone else’s hot breath in my ear. Of letting someone else touch me in a way that I really just want Korn to touch me.

I need him to make me whole again…

“Knock.” He says with a hint of a whine. “This is so not the moment for this.”

He almost sounds desperate. And yes, he is right.

But somehow I don’t care anymore. All this talking about our feelings and this being open and honest… It’s all good and necessary. But there is a time for talking and there is a time for fucking. And right now, is not the time for talking…

Slowly I am getting onto my knees and crawl in front of him. My eyes are never leaving his and right now he looks a bit like a deer caught in a headlight. Somehow this is quiet the turn on. Normally it’s always him devouring me, making me go all weak. But right now, I just don’t give a crap about it.

He thinks this is not the right moment? I will change his mind. Oh, I will so change his mind.

I push him backwards and just continue my way up his body until I am straddling his lap. My arms are moving slowly next to his head and I am moving my face closer and closer to him.

Our eyes are still locked and I am sure he can see the desire burning in mine. My eyes are just half open and my eyebrows are lifted just this tiny bit. The smirk on my face is getting bigger and when I am slowly biting my bottom lip I can finally see him react.

It’s like a switch is getting turned and suddenly our lips are crashing together. His hands are straight on my neck, pulling me closer and closer. I still can smell his aftershave on his skin and it’s delicious. It makes me want him so much more. I love the way he smells. It’s something that can me go completely crazy.

I am loosing myself into our kiss. His tongue is so hot in my mouth and I can feel his hands on my neck, my back and suddenly on my bum. He squeezes both cheeks a bit harder then necessary, but I know how much he loves my backside. He always says it’s his favourite part about my body. Because it’s his. Just his…

For a second a picture of someone else’s hands on my bottom flickers in my mind, but with just another swipe of his tongue over mine, all awful memories are gone and there are just feelings of wanting, needing and belonging left.

Again I can feel myself float away just with our kiss, when Korn suddenly switches us around. With a soft thud I am landing on my back and my arms are just falling lazily over my head. Korn takes the chance and strips me of my shirt. His hands are so hot on my skin and I love every second of it.

He runs down my chest, over my abs and before I even have time to start stripping him of his offending clothes, he is already working on my pants. Just feeling his hands near my most sensitive part makes me whimper in anticipation. An involuntary buckle of my hips is making Korn chuckle.

“Someone is eager.” He laughs softly and looks up to me.

His eyes are sparkling with desire. But the love I see in them is even bigger and it makes my heart beat faster. I really believe I have never seen a more beautiful man then my Korn right now. He is glorious.

Like magnets our lips find each other again and with a bit tugging and pulling we finally manage to get rid of all our clothes without having to stop with our tongue dance. I can’t get enough of him. I just want to drink him up. I want him so much. I need him.

With an experienced hand I find his hard member and I know he is halfway there. But tonight I want him so much. I want him as hard as he can be. And with a grin I push him back onto the bed and slide down the mattress until I am at the same level as his most sensitive part of his body.

I just take a quick look up and I see his eyes on me. He is dying of the anticipation right now and it makes me grin just a bit more. I am moving my head over his crotch and my hot breath on his skin is making him jump slightly.

“Fucking tease.” I hear him mutter and just as a revenge I take him in with one big gulp.

The sharp intake of breath I can hear coming from him tells me that I did something incredibly right and the low moans and groans that follow are just spurring me on even more. Just when I can feel him getting too excited I stop with one last, hard suck.

Just hearing him making these noises is doing so much for my own desire, I can’t go on anymore. I need him inside me. I need him around me. I just really, really need him.

With one swift grab of his two strong arms I am back on my back and I know I have him right were I want him. The look in his eyes is just pure lust and it makes me shiver in anticipation. His kisses are so hot now and his hands are rough and strong over my skin. I love when he looses all inhibitions and just totally looses himself in our love making.

He prepares me in a gently but still slightly rough manner. He knows what I like and just like it always had been he is pure perfection. I am starting to loose my ability to think anything clearly and all that is left is my own lust and desire for this man that I love with all my heart.

When he grabs into our night stand to get out one of the condoms it’s like for a second there is a dark cloud hanging over our head. But just for a second, because before I even have a chance to start thinking about the implications he enters me.

He enters me hard and fast and it makes me see stars in an instant. He just feels so good and I will never get tired of this feeling of connection between us. It’s so complete, it’s so beautiful.

Korn starts to move slowly. My legs are around his back and when he moves his upper body closer to me the angle of his thrusts are changing slightly and he leaves me a groaning mess.

His lips are bringing me slightly back to reality and a sudden rush of love is floating through my body. He is so gentle, so caring, but still all strong and protective. I never need to be afraid of anything. Because I have him…

I open my eyes during our kiss and am surprised to see his eyes open as well. Our gaze meet and somehow it feels like time itself is standing still. I can feel him inside me, I can feel him all around me and I can feel his love completely covering me.

There are some tears forming in his eyes and I know where they I coming from. But right now I just want to be here. I close my eyes again and put all the love I have for him in our kiss.

His tongue is still so warm and tasty, it doesn’t take long and we are both completely engulfed into our bliss again. He is moving now quicker and harder and I can feel myself getting closer and closer.

My moans are getting more pressed now and as always Korn can read it right. His hand is going inbetween us, while he puts his whole weight on his one arm. I can see his muscles tense because of the effort to keep him up. But he still is not getting slower.

When his hand connects with my hard member I can feel a shower running through my whole body. He changes the angle again slightly for his thrusts and then begins to thrust and caress my cock in the same speed.

I am totally loosing any connection to reality. All I can hear, feel, see, taste is him…

He is everywhere.

He is under my skin. He is in my heart.

With closed eyes I can feel this fantastic wave of my orgasm crash over my head and I am floating away with it. It feels so good and with one last, long and content moan I let go of all the tension in my body, all the tension in my heart.

God, I so needed this. I feel like I can breath again for the first time in weeks.

It takes two more thrusts and I can feel Korn following me over the edge. His body just tenses up even more, before he goes all limp, falling onto my broad chest. His head falls into the nap of my neck and his hot breath is tickling my skin.

All I can do is wrap my arms around his back and kiss his hair with so much love and care. I honestly love this man so stupidly much. He is my whole entire world. I know it’s stupid. But I just don’t care. I need him like the air I breath. I am addicted to him. And I don’t even want to quit. This is it. Without him in my life there is no reason for anything.

I am just letting myself float further on my afterglow high.

These moments of pure contentment and bliss are so rare.

I enjoy it with every fibre of my being.

“So you finally got what you wanted?” Korn’s voice tickles on my neck, when he finally breaks the spell.

“Don’t tell me I took advantage of you.” I chuckle lowly while still holding him close. His head shoots up and I can see a scolding face in front of me.

“You practically jumped me.” He protests, but I just push his head back onto my chest and give his hair another kiss.

“I didn’t hear any complaints while we were doing it.” I say with a laughing voice and Korn snuggles his face just a bit more into my chest.

“Well, it’s been a while…” He admits and with these words suddenly the atmosphere changes.

We both notice in an instance. Korn lifts his head again and looks into my eyes.

“Shouldn’t we talk about this?” He asks with a serious voice and I just nod without saying a word.

“So where should we start?” And I honestly have no idea.

So I just stay quiet and shrug my shoulders slightly. To my dismay he rolls of my body and even tries to sit up. With a strong arm I pull him back and before he can do anything about it, I am already lying in his arm with my full weight. There is no way he can get up now.

“We can talk, but you are staying here.” I demand and with a slight chuckle he gives up.

“I am sorry about Mick.” Korn states first.

“What happened?” I ask and I can feel my heartbeat quicken. I am not mad at him. Not at all. But I am worried about what might have happened. I won’t lie.

“I tried to find out a bit more about his sexual health status. But somehow that didn’t worked out as planned.” He scratches his head in an unsure manner, but I just stay quiet.

“I really just wanted to talk to him. Find out if he really is such a playboy… But somehow… He started saying all these things about you and… I couldn’t help it…” His words are making me flinch.

“What did he say about me?” My voice is on the edge.

“Nothing I am going to repeat to you. Nothing he said has any meaning to me any way.” His answer is stern and makes me wonder even more about what he might have said.

“Did he speak about…” I stop for a second. “Did he speak about “us”?”

Korn understands immediately what I mean and he doesn’t need to say anything, because the way his eyes dart to the side is telling me the truth instantly.

“Does… Does is bother you?” I ask with a tiny voice.

It takes a moment for him to answer.

“No. It doesn’t.” He says sincerely.

“Are you sure? I mean, I could understand…” I am trying to find the right words.

“Knock. It’s okay, really. I am not thrilled that it happened. I won’t lie. This little butt…” He grabs one of my cheeks and squeezes it firmly. “This little butt belongs to me and I don’t want anyone else to ever see it or touch it and especially have sex with it.” His words are making me slightly chuckle even though I totally don’t feel like it.

“But we were not together when you…” He stops again and takes a deep breath. “… when you slept with him. So you had every right under the sun to do what you did. I still don’t get why it had to be such a slime ball as Mick, but since I cheated with the most weasely man on planet earth I honestly can’t judge there either.”

Suddenly a picture of Pete holding a ferret in his arms pops into my mind and I can’t help but start laughing. And thinking about the absurdity of the situation right now is making me laugh even harder. Before I can actually calm myself down, I have tears running down my cheeks, I am laughing so hard.

Korn just looks at me like I am crazy.

If you would have asked me a few weeks ago if I could imagine lying in bed with Korn, talking about other guys we had sex with and laughing my freaking head off I would have told them they are crazy. But somehow all this is okay. Thinking about Pete doesn’t hurt anymore. It still stings and I am sure it always will. But the gut wrenching pain is gone and left is just a little prick.

And I suddenly realise how far we actually have come. Individually and as a couple. We both have worked so hard on ourselves and on our relationship and we can finally see the results of all the hard work. I feel so elated right now.

“Have you lost your mind?” Korn asks carefully while looking at me with an anxious gaze.

I just shake my head with another laugh.

“I just noticed how far we have come.” I say and the confusion on Korn’s face is not disappearing.

“I mean, look at us. We are lying in bed, talking about our issues. Talking about the guy, I had sex with and about the other guy, you cheated with. And we are doing it in an almost humorous manner. You are not bursting with jealousy right now and I am not dying of pain because of Pete. We made such a jump forward. I am impressed.” I shrug my shoulders and slowly I see a change in his face.

“You are right. We really did well.” He smiles slighly and his arm is pulling me closer to his side.

He plants a soft kiss on my hair and I just sigh contently.

I am happy right now. Just happy and content.

“Knock?” He asks a bit anxiously.

“Hm?” I close my eyes and just inhale more of his heavenly scent.

“You know that whatever your test results are, it won’t change a thing between us, right?” I hesitate for a second and I can feel a slight knot form in my throat. Do I know?

“I love you more then anything else in this world. I know people always say that. But I really, really mean it. I love you so much and if the test comes back as positive then we will find a way to keep you as healthy as possible for as long as we can. I will never leave you alone with any of this. Even if someday you wake up and decide you don’t want me anymore. I will always stay with you. And even if it’s just as a friend. I will always be there…” I know his words should give me solace, but all they create right now is mild annoyance.

“You are such an idiot. Why do you still believe that one day I might decide I don’t want us anymore? I just love you the same as you love me, you numpty.”

I want to hit him on the head, but he manages to move away and I just get his neck. This starts a little struggle. Me trying to hit him some more, him trying to keep me still. Not before long we are both giggling and rolling around the bed. Our lips find each other again and we are getting lost in our kisses all over again.

I am laying flat on my back again. My hands and arms just laying lazily over my head while he kisses me with such vigour that it makes my heart skips a beat. Right inbetween one of these kisses he suddenly moves his head slightly up and looks deep into my eyes.

“It’s because even after all this time I still can’t believe that you, the guy I have been in love with forever, the guy who could have anyone in this world, that you really and honestly want me. You are so caring, so loving and so much fun to be around. In my eyes you are perfect. And I will forever try to show you just how perfect you are to me. I love you so much…”

With a quick grab my hand is on his neck and I pull his face down to me. I am kissing him with all the love I have in me.

This is a new start…

A new beginning…

And whatever the world will throw at us, we will make it through…

Because we have each other. And there is nothing that could change that.

Nothing…