Gosh, how much I love this show? It’s so fucked up and so wrong and so human… It really gives me goosebumps every time I am watching it. And for once I am really into reading proper character breakdowns about our heroes and I thought, maybe I should do the same. Just so see how my opinion is gonna change at the end. So here we are with what I think and feel about each main character after seven episodes. Let’s see if it changes with three or five more episodes to go.
Boston: Let’s start with the obvious one. Gosh, what a hedonistic boy. And yes, I say boy with a purpose as I feel that this BOY definitely still needs some growing up to do. He is just concerned about his own pleasure and his own needs and doesn’t see anyone around him at all. He is so afraid of any feelings that he just pretends he doesn’t have any. He lives a hedonistic lifestyle where everything is just about whatever is good for him. I honestly don’t think he has any feelings for Nick at all at this moment. I don’t even think he even respects Nick at all. It’s just pure manipulation and lust for him. He knows about Nick’s feelings and he uses them for his advantage. Does he have a chance to come back from this? Of course. Plenty of people have done shitty things. You always can come back from this.
Nick: Boston’s little toy. That’s how I see him mainly. Boston has shown him something he definitely has missed in his life beforehand. And I think Nick also is a bit gullible believing Boston’s sugar coated words where everyone and their uncle already know he is just saying it to get what he wants from Nick. Nick is not stupid, he is totally aware of Nick’s true colours and he still fell in love with him. And now… Well, once you have feelings it’s so hard to find the right way out again. And if nothing really big happens to Boston… I don’t think he ever will be what Nick needs him to be. Nick will always end with a broken heart here.
Mew: His character is interesting. He is an honour student, shooting straight from the hip. He was a virgin, but this doesn’t make him a naive push over. I honestly think he thought he could control Top. He has been doing this with Ray pretty much for years now. Mew says jump and Ray asks how high. So I honestly believe that Mew just really thought his love could change someone like Top. He thought he could make Top as perfect as Mew is himself. Because on the surface Top is actually pretty perfect. It’s just when you look at the nitty gritty when you see the cracks. But instead he finds out Top betrayed him and goes berserk. I have read now so often from people that say Mew and Top don’t love each other. Bullshit. They were pretty much in love with each other and that’s why it hit Mew so hard to find out he was betrayed. He saved himself for someone special. He thought Top was special. But Mew thinks now he was wrong. Which I am not sure he was. He is just always hunting for this perfect love story his mums had. But he doesn’t understand that this doesn’t exist?
I am not sure. Mew is a very interesting character and he is changing a lot right now. But I honestly think he loves Top, or at the very least loved the idea of Top.
Top: The character that gets the most shit undeservingly in my opinion. I really have taken to him because even though he is definitely a fuckhead… Well, they all are and that’s kind of the point of the show. That there is always shadow where there is light. Even the knight in shining armour can fuck his boyfriends best friend… And I don’t want to make light of Top’s cheating. But still. I think Top really fell for Mew. It might have been a bit of trophy hunting in the beginning as scoring a virgin is always a goal for someone like him. But I really think he liked that Mew wanted more from him than just his body. Because look at Boston. He has no interest in Top other than what he can do in the bedroom. This must be very hard for someone when people are just always interested in your body and your outsides but not really in anything else. So yeah, I think for Top the entire situation with Mew is completely new and he is very surprised himself about this. When Boston then starts to poke him about Ray and Mew Top has no idea how to react and with Boston pretty much almost forcing him… But I always found it interesting that Top froze the first time in the shower with Boston and even when they had sex, Top didn’t look like he was really into it until a bit later. We also have this confession about the fire, the fact that Top is extremely lonely and always has been and his issues with drugs. If this doesn’t sound like a man with a ton of mental health issues I don’t know. So yeah, again. Top is really interesting to me. I am curious how he is gonna deal with the break up in the next episode. Because here in episode 7 he almost went insane. Here, I bought some books for you. Like what? He is so lost, the poor lamb. I really believe his tears.
Sand: Gosh, how much I love this character. He is so caring and sweet and his taste in clothes and music is impeccable. So yeah, I am a bit biased with him, so please excuse this fact. Buuuuuut he is definitely also part of the fuckhead brigade even though his dark sides might not be as dark as the ones from other characters. But he definitely has a lot to deal with. His upbringing couldn’t have been easy with him having a mum like this and no dad. He is still struggling financially, has to take care of his mother pretty much and is just trying to make ends meet somehow. But he is definitely the one at fault with the recording. He used this to hurt Top and karma came back and bit him massively into the backside. I am sure he is so in love with Ray already. I think he can’t resist Ray’s smile and the puppy dog eyes and I think the biggest draw is that Ray desperately needs saving and if someone is good at this then it’s Ray. He is always the one helping out. It’s in his DNA.So when he sees a stray and hurt dog on the side of the road… Of course he is gonna take care of him, no matter how often he gets bitten. But I am interested to see what happens when Boing comes into the picture. Because I think then we’re gonna see another side to Sand. His hate for Top really runs deep. So I am guessing there is gonna be more to come.
Ray: The stray puppy that needs rescuing at all costs. Gosh, what a sad existence this boy has. His mother blamed him for her downfall. I am sure his father blames him as well for the way things went with his mum after the birth. He must feel like he is just a burden to the entire world and it would be so much better if he just disappeared. He really is hurting just so, so badly. And I think that’s why he doesn’t even understand what Sand is offering right now. I don’t think Ray understands that Sand really loves and cares for him. I don’t think he feels he is ever worthy of any love. His feelings for Mew seem to be more grateful for helping him in the past. He was there when Ray was at his darkest point and I think that’s what Ray wants to repay him. I don’t think what Ray feels is love is actually still love. It has changed over time but I don’t think Ray has noticed that yet. And just on a side note… I have read that a lot of people think that Ray and Mew are now a couple. I don’t necessarily believe that. The words were not clearly said, Mew never said he liked Ray, he never accepted a kiss or anything. I can see them maybe hanging out and partying. But I am not so sure if Mew would really go this low and use his best friend like this. I just can’t see it. But we shall see.
So these are my opinions on all our six heroes after watching seven episodes. I really have to say I love everything about this show so far. There is literally nothing I can fault here. It’s just such gripping writing and it reminds me so much of how I was when I was still clubbing with my friends. The draaaaaama every evening. This one kissed this guy, but they had been together with a friend of theirs before and somehow they crossed over timewise and so on. Ah, the wondrous life of university students.
So yeah, let’s see how much my views are gonna change over the next few episodes. I still think we will get Mew and Top happy and I also think we will get Ray and Sand somehow together. I am not so sure about Nick and Boston. But that’s just because I wouldn’t be surprised if Boston just lights one last atomic bomb and than fucks off to america to live with his mother and to leave all the others to deal with the fall out. But again we shall see..
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